Q- In the current times of economical, spiritual, emotional and rational difficulty and confusion, how can we really know what we want out of life?
S.D. London
A: From the very beginning of our time, due to the limited awareness of ourselves, we have suffered difficulty. We are limited in our understanding of who we are, what we are, how we are functioning, what our capacities and capabilities are, and what our purpose is. As individuals, or a collective that does not know who it is, anything that it may want out of life will always feel somehow disconnected, irrelevant, and will ultimately cause conflict and pain, both individually and collectively.
Without awareness, our goals will only manifest from our personality based subjective needs. To that end we are subject to external conditioning. Ultimately making an effort to fulfill a personality lack, hiding behind economical, environmental, emotional, educational, or whatever else the pressure may pose as. The point is, it will always provide you a good reason to not know who you are and what you are doing here.
What is the answer here? If we do not know who we are, everything else that we do is tainted by insecurity, lack of awareness, uncertainty, and it all translates itself as a weakness, and a limitation. Any purpose following is not filled by the joyous and powerful creative energy of your Heart, but a slow and calculated rational fix, trying desperately to move itself along the path of its identity’s saviour and esteem. It all meets with disappointment eventually, because none of it lasts, none of it brings any real satisfaction of itself, none of it has the power to ignite happiness, love, joy and passion within if it isn’t already realised to begin with.
What we want from life, is the ultimate peace and fulfillment that we thought we could buy, or find in a relationship, or achieve in our jobs and titles, or status, or any one thing or another. Ultimately there is no external realisation, or manifestation that could bring inner this peace or fulfillment to you. There is no one here who has attained lasting peace, fulfillment or happiness truly, sincerely, in anything external to themselves, unless they already felt these things, and then it would all be a secondary pleasure, not essential happiness. If happiness is dependent and conditional upon an external thing, it is not happiness at all, it is merely another identification, and a condition.
True happiness, is unconditional, it is a joy within that is experienced when we recognise that we are not our minds, we are not our thoughts, we are not who we think we are, but rather we are something much more than our intellectual functioning. The truth of it is that what we are is far greater than any of these external forms, which are enjoyable of course, but cannot fulfill us, and do not define us.
Until we have realised our true essence, we will always feel this nagging lack, and will continue to chase our own tails trying to find it. However, when we do find it, we realise that there are not things in life which we want, instead it is the natural expression of ourselves, which joyously pours through in every way that it can interact with, in every area of our life, ultimately creating more and more of itself.
At that point our purpose here can show itself in various way, each of them is represented by each one of us in its own unique way. We can each maintain a natural responsibility and accountability to the large and small societies which we inhabit, our families, communities and companies. The value and quality of our contributions to those who we share a common purpose with shifts and becomes clearer.
The majority of us believe that life is a gift here for us to do something with, and miss the point that life is already happening and was already happeining by itself all along before we showed up. And we are just another expression of it, within it, with a single powerful opportunity, to realise our true Creative nature in all of this. Other than that life is happening all by itself, even within us. A better way to look at it is what inspires the mind that it has a purpose? That is what we are, that which inspires everything.
Our Egoic way of thinking has led us to indulge in “external gifts” rather than acknowledging the Creative essence within the self. The very basis for our desires, needs, wants and motives in life are based on a limited, subjective perspective of our Egoic identities. We therefore find the “new age race for happiness” is ironically tainted with great dissatisfaction with life. There are of course many out there selling peace, happiness and love. However there is a condition, that will require you to chase and live for fantasies and dreams, whilst the true reality will pass by you, and you will ignore the greatest truth within yourself the whole time.
It is simple, you already are all that you dream about, you already are the Creator being, and have yet believed that they min could somehow mimic this, and by attaining just one more goal, you too will have all that you want, and become all that you already are. Only that which brings you to this realisation is of any real use to us, and after that we realise all we can do is observe as this force manifests and expresses itself through us spontaneously, magically and freely, in wonderful ways that we could not have thought of.
Our true essence,will turn what we think we know about ourselves on it’s head. It will also transform who we believe we are, and what we believe we want. Without it our personal goals can only be described as a stagnation of what we are, as mindless indulgences manifested in economical, educational and emotional resourcing of whatever spiritual, intellectual, inspirational, material food we think we hunger and greed for.
On a conscious level, you may realise that what you really want out of life is not to be passively ignorant of it’s horrors, and subjectively indulgent of it’s beauties, but rather to fulfill the expression of life here consciously. It will lead the way, open the doors, lay out the paths, and everything else that is required, all you have to do, is be a witness to it.